Wazzz uppp blog..

Oh blog...our relationship hasn't been so good. but anyway. .
{CAUTION IF YOU ARE IN A GOOD MOOD DON'T READ THIS THIS MAY E/A FFECT IT}

Side note ( I might find a girlfriend. It seems like everyone is getting one now. Like pets :D )
There is this fine ass chick in my Spanish 3 class but her teeth are kinda fucked up.. so....yeah..maybe not. I disregard all of my morals and be a man. Maybe be a heart breaker

OHHH yeahhh I noticed that I don't have a best friend.. (This really made me sad)...You know, that childhood friend that everyone has...I don't have one.

My life really fucking sucks right now.. the job that I was guaranteed to receive fell apart.
I don't know if I was more pissed or upset. She said that in a few months the job would be mine.
This woman is a family friend and reasonably trustworthy. She isn't lieing. Trust me

In the mean time....... I am back at Wendy's...fuck my life.. it is so boring there. I only went back because I need to come up with 381 dollars by October for student fees.


While commenting on Brenden's status on facebook today, I noticed that I have never loved anything in my entire life. I've liked many things and I would be sad without certain things...but I've never felt the need to love anything or anyone.
Has Hollywood blinded me ??? Am I expecting love to just appear? Maybe I've experienced love before ,but It just wasn't up to par on what I expect it it be?

"Statistically"( I use this term lightly) we are all approaching the age that most of us will die in crazy accidents. This sucks. Everyone be careful . Seriously.


*I kinda miss everyone but I really can't complain because if everyone was back we wouldn't have time to see each other anyway. * I've excepted this already.

"Slap a saddle on that horse fly"

Had fun this weekend with Maddy.

http://www.youtube.com/user/amttchapman#p/a/u/1/ukJW6aaq-wc



This is what we do most of the time. Just a look at the "real" us.
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'Round The World

So I played a joke on my mom. AHHAHA very funny!! I found a picture on the Internet of some people dancing or something and I super imposed myself into the picture. They are like in China or somewhere. My mom saw the picture and freaked out!!. It is on my facebook under "Hanging out" if you want to get a better look at it.
"Where were you?!?! New Orleans?" hahahhaah

Mom thought she saw Khanh on the left (Yellow shirt) and Sandra somewhere. I had her going for minutes. I finally told her that I didn't go anywhere and she DIDN"T believe me!! HAHAHAH

I love mi Mum

Signing A New Tune

Head Hunt
Kristin's party was really fun. (Nothing ironic intended with the following paragraph)
I'm a beast at volley ball and "I can get low at limbo and I can jump like a frog"
I scared Kelcey when she was on the playground and she later decided to smear an orange on my face when I wasn't paying attention. I retaliated with the 10x(times) harder rule. I smothered a Sloppy Joe all across her face! Muhahahhahha Bitch get some. lol Torrean helped me hold her against the wall. It felt like a very strange rape team. lol She over reacted and took her shirt off. :/ She was wearing a bathing suit underneath. She said I got some Sloppy Joe in her hair and her shirt. I will admit to the hair, but I didn't even come close to the shirt. I later made a reference to Kiki about the situation after Courtney spilled some water on her.
" You going to take your shirt off too?"
" Um... No. hahaha. Your bad."

Music hunt
I've been trying to put together an amazing playlist recently. While on my hunt I decided to sign a song that I found. It is kinda fast and I am asking an sign language youtuber to take a look at the lyrics that I planned out to see if they are in the correct word order. I have a fear of being insulted by the def and ASL community.

College hunt
I took care of some much dreaded business today at the Jackson County Campus.
At lunch with my mom today. I met her at her office. Ly Buffet.
I was telling her that the last time I was there I ate with at thief. We talked about my dad some. When we were done eating I asked her if she wanted to go with me to the ATC. She agreed.
Turns out I have to contact my Electronics teacher....that bastard..
He needs to write me a letter of recommendation.
I called Gautier High today to get my transcripts delivered. Mrs. Shook answered and transfered me to Mr. Woodward. I waited on the phone for 10 mins.... no one picked up the phone..... Still need to do some things.


Crap I just remembered... I was suppose to run with Robert tonight.....DAMN!!!!!

Bye need to do that. I'm not a liar...

Playing catch up

Ok...I wanted to give the run down because it feels like I've been gone for 3 weeks.

Gone for 3 days.
swimming....rain...fishing...not sleeping....getting pissed..laughing.. long walks in the dark...telling stories..trying to sneak into a hidden bunker in some stranger's yard...F-N crazy

Killed windows OS completely and give birth to Ubuntu. LOVE IT!!

No phone.. no facebook...no connection to people I love to hang out with.
The phone and facebook wasn't a big deal.
I felt like I was being spammed when I got reception..

I ate Church's chicken for the 2nd time in my life.


(the crew) Vs (other group of friends I always hung out with)


I love the crew. Just saying.., but I miss the other group.

I feel like I'm falling behind with some of the other group.

_Crew_ _Other Group_
Khanh Ryan
Paul Stephen
Erica Robert
Torrean Tyler -
etc everyone else I like. (Long list) RJ...Billy....Spicers (plural)

I want to be close to both groups.. I feel closer to the crew though. The conversations are always so much better.

rule of life. Put yourself in an atmosphere that you feel most comfortable.

Hung out with some of the best hommies I have ever met. let's just say...It was something like this.. haha ☻☻☻☺☻☻☻ Guess which one was me. ha

Me:"Mom, do you care if I go bowling?"
Dad: with who?
Me: Torrean and Julianis
Dad: who???
Me: some black friends
Mom: Have fun honey

My dad just walked in and I have to go.. bye later

Parties and Porno

Torrean has a blog now.. Now i have to watch what I say lol Just kidding.



So I've been kinda lacking on my blog biz-naz. My life is kinda at a standstill, trying to build the courage to tell my parents what I want to do with my life is harder than I thought. My grandparents are down from Maine for graduation. I was told that my Grampy was dancing on the stage at the shed with his whiskey hidden inside his beer can. -sigh- ...sorry.



I didn't realize how dumb my dad was till I heard him talk. I don't know why I said that. He has been on my nerves on and off.



My sister(Mellissa) just broke up with her boyfriend last night. They dated for 2 years.. I hated him. He was cool though. He doesn't know how to do his own laundry or anything and they were going to move in together and go to college. Thank god or someone that she realized that she would be doing it. She told him she wasn't going to be his maid and she ended it.

He will most likely come back around. They have gone on so many trips together. Kayaking trips, Hiking trips, Grand canyon trips, .. etc MILLIONS!!



My grandparents are meeting Maddy's boyfriend tonight. They have been dating for 3 months. He's cool. I haven't really held a conversation long enough to determine if he is uneducated yet. I have heard him talk before and he sounds dumb.



Speaking of dumb. ...let's just say that when I was in the office today they wanted me to pay $234 for my AP test... FUCK THAT!! I told them I was on free lunch. I have to write a letter saying that I can't pay it. Erizzel should do the same thing.

Graduation is tomorrow and so is Erizzel's party. I'm excited. Erizzel's party first, then graduation, then Ali's.
I feel like a party whore. haha

Today my grandparents asked me what I wanted to do with my life.. I said die young. lol That should throw them off. They only know me based off of pictures and what my parents say. Both don't know squat about me. My grandpa thinks I'm dumb.. so I'll let him think what he wants.

My other set of grandparents are trying to force money down my mouth every chance they get. " we will pay for your school." blah blah blah.....

I will NEVER take the money. I don't want them holding that above my head.

Well I'm done. I know this isn't a very good blog. I guess I've gotten rusty. haha I'm uploading a porno video that we shot today onto youtube. I wonder how long it will take before it gets ban.

Climbing the tower

First let me start off by saying that Karma is a bitch and I'm being punished.If I have a strange walk tomorrow, you know why.

K-dog: So did you get bit by another snake yet?
Me: haha.. No. I guess y'all haven't been mean enough lately

1 day later...I broke my toe playing football. Saturday night

Carpe diem has really been on my mind lately. Ever since I climbed on top of Mrs. Blackwell's desk I have had the urge to have that feeling again. Friday night .. well.. Saturday morning.
3 AMsh. I climbed the water tower across the street from my house.. The view was amazing. I felt like I was seeing around my house for the first time. I don't think I will tell Mrs. Blackwell about that. haha


I was really sad Saturday night. I haven't teared up in a very long time and I never cry.. ever.
I have been talking to my sister(Mellissa) more than I have ever talked to her before. We hung out Saturday and Mothers Day. We are in the same situation friend wise. We both 'had' one friend that was always a moocher and was never a true friend. We didn't know why we would always hang out with them. They were nothing like us.
Strangely enough, We both( Mellissa and I) ended our friendships with our best friends this weekend.
Tyler has been my best friend since 5th grade. We hang out all the time and eat breakfast together, but I knew he was a bad friend. My parents have always told me that he was bad and I shouldn't associate myself with him. I didn't listen. So many years of questionable friendship.. Yet we always hung out.

I have told myself before that I should not be friends with him. But sometimes he is cool and fun to hang out with.

I pretty much had it when we all met up at someones house to play football at the soccer complex. I always drive to the complex and someone always drives too. Usually alternating between Robert and Stephen. We always have 2 car loads of people. Well.. this time I said I wasn't going to drive. Everyone was cool with it because they know I drive every where. No one wanted to volunteer to drive.. we sat there for a good 10 mins.. then Robert and Stephen said they would drive. Tyler said he wasn't going to. I got so fucking mad. Tyler NEVER drives. NEVER... His reasoning was SHIT. A first grader could have came up with a better excuse.
He tried to turn 2 other friends against me... just like him.. but I got to them first and told them the whole situation. He was poising their minds with lies. SO FUCKING LIKE HIM..
I made amens with the 2 other friends. Explaining that it was wrong of me to try to make them pick sides knowing they like both of us. I told Tyler that I can not be his friend. That we were both thinking it so we mine as well say it. I'm going to make plans to eat breakfast with Ali or somebody. She used to eat with us sometimes.

I don't have 1st block anymore so I don't have to sit by him. I'm trying to be as mature as I can about this but I know he is going to make it difficult. I don't care if he talks shit about me. I'm not going to retaliate. I am and I will always be the bigger and better person. I don't think of myself of having questionable morals. I hope people know that when I say "I'm your friend" you get the whole friendship package. Secrets are kept, your name defended, and my 100% support.
The only thing that has kept me going is the reasoning I have made myself believe.
He is the one that lost a good friend, I'm just that fool that had his company.

[Friendship terminated]
I will still hang out with our mutual friends, They have already asked me that. I laughed and said why would he have ownership of your guys? It's not a custody battle. haha

List

1. Space
2. On top of a moving bus
3. In the manatee or polar bear exhibit.. don't ask..
4. The rain forest
5. In a dark alley. Just so I can say that I did.
6.On an escalator in a large mall.. Try to finish before we get to the top. Might be hard.
7. A McDonald's bathroom
8. Hudson's changing room.
9. In a hotel bathroom shower. A nice one. While being broadcasted on the Internet.
10. Mushroom kingdom.....Peaches castle..
11. In a raptors nest
12. The cabin of a pirate ship
13. A cave where blood diamonds are. Africa
14. In the cargo storage area on a titanic replica. Car. I've always wanted to steam windows.
15. The alter of a church
16.Storage closet
17. Behind some bushes in the Grand Canyon
19. Falling out of a plane
20.In a twinkie factory.

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Ap english exam/pmsing/guilt

I've been in a sad mood towards the end of the day recently.

In other news I think my female house mates are pmsing. They had a big verbal dispute over a shirt.. again.. This one lasted for quite some time. Minutes later.... Mellissa called Madison outside to talk. They were making up. My dad asked me why she called Madison over. I didn't feel like having to explain the situation to him so I did what I do best, played dumb. He bought it.. of course Within this making up ritual they decide to go get snow cones without me. :( The argument was, I was trying to fall asleep on the couch. I laughed.. yeah. Mellissa gave me the rest of hers when they got back. Of coarse Madison's fat ass ate hers before they got back. haha (She hid at least 30 pizza rolls from me the day before. She lied to me and told me they were all gone. I would have believed her too if i wouldn't have found the plate left on the table.)

Had the English test today...blah..blah.. but that is not what I wanted to blog about.

During the break between the multiple choice and the essays, I was talking with a student about a selection on the test, The Race. It was about a woman running through an airport trying to board a plane and see her loved one that was in a hospital. The doctor told her she wouldn't be able to reach him in time. Short story even shorter, She made it.

The conversation with this student went like this: Red:Student Blue: Me haha

That section about the race kinda made me tear up a bit

Why? The story wasn't even that good.

Well.. My dad died . .and. .yeah.

Oh,(long ass douchbagish never ending pause) sorry.

End conversation: subject dropped. Sad story avoided.

I was thinking about that for most of the day today. Why did I pause? Why did I over analyze the situation and send a message to the person explaining that I was sorry for pausing?

Message:

Do you remember today when you were telling me about the passage on the test that kinda hit close to home for you? I'm sorry for only saying

"Oh,(long douchebag pause) sorry" I was thinking about that all day today and felt bad afterwards. I guess the human nature in me wanted me to pry and know the whole story, but my better judgement made me freak out and avoid the subject completely. I know you probably didn't interpret the situation like I did, but I still feel like I should apologize. Sorry.

I need to print out a calender to keep up with all the graduation party days. My sisters graduation party was a surprise. I hope they don't spring one on me. I really need the calender so I can put it on the fridge so my parents can plan around the days.

This is the third time I've written this blog.. My computer has been infected by some kind of virus so I'm on my mom's. Don't let your siblings download music...

Select one of the following.. guess which one she would pick

1. Hey soul sister-Train

2. HEY SOUL SISTER OFFICIAL-TRAIN

3.Hey soul sister-Train

I enjoyed the blogs. Sorry mines is so late. I don't think anyone will read this before we go to school.

AP Spanish Exam/ Cloud9

I took the AP Spanish Exam today and I think I did really well. I kinda stumbled on the audio portion a little bit, but that was only 20 percent of the grade. :( I'm sure I got at least some credit on that one anyway. There were tons of reading passages, essays, DBQs, and free response (literally, talk in the microphone type stuff) I had a good time taking the test. I know that sounds weird, but the testing environment was really great. I knew the other two people in there. ha I want to tell you about one of the audio questions that I almost made me start laughing.
Keep in mind that this is all in Spanish. lol I was completely thrown off by the old woman talking. I was expecting a middle aged male. haha It felt like I was talking with an old Spanish maid.
Directions: respond to the dialog and hold a conversation
Old woman: I think we should have a language day. What languages should we celebrate?
Me: I think we should celebrate French, Italian, and German they are very interesting.
Old woman: That's great. How should we decorate the halls?
Me: WTF??
Old woman: What type of crafts should we make?
Me: umm.....
Old woman: Sounds fun. Goodbye. Thanks for talking. See you soon
End recording
Me:Wtf??

I was really proud of myself for writing 2 pages on why music has an important impact on the lives of the young. I was straight beast. It was like something inside me just turned on and it was survive or be eaten alive by self remorse. I don't know where I found the words, but I was (I'm just going to say it) FUCKING BEAST!!!
I saw another girl taking the test and she had her head down waiting for it to end. haha

I can't remember most of the exam because I couldn't see a lot of it. Most of the test was read aloud by a CD player
I also had to write a e-mail to my friend who invited me to go on vacation with them. I wrote about how I was excited about going and that I've been to that beach before and how the staff was so nice. Then I talked about how I couldn't go because my grandma was very sick and I needed to be with her.
I had to compare the lives of 2 people. I had a physical copy of one section that described one person then I had to listen to the other source. Then I had 2 minutes to think then 2 minutes to talk about them. Haha I said more than anyone else. :) confidence.

One of the counselors told me that she was proud of me. I was on cloud 9 today.
My Spanish teacher found me in the hallway and asked me about the exam. She is so nice. I love her. She wished me luck the day before and told me that morning also.
I told her that I couldn't schedule to be in her class till next Wednesday haha. She looked at me like I was on crack. She said " what?"
Then I explained.
Thursday- AP English
Friday- Senior Field day (It better be)
Monday- AP Bio
Tuesday-Ap Environmental (I'm not going to pay the money. hahaha)
Wednesday- Spanish teacher make up test. last day of school :)

Need to blog

My methods are my own, to understand first you must disregard everything you currently know. - Matt Chapman
I seem to have this fantasy that my life will unfold into this neat and creaseless reality. My life will be perfect and everything happens for a reason. My past and present converge to form a life I could have only dreamt of. But now, growing ever closer to graduation, reality is starting to show it's ugly little practical head. I've faced reality before. No big deal right? But something was different this time. In this case, uncertainty was lurking behind it. As you would expect a shadow to do. Turning the cheek would not suffice this time. Action needed to be preformed in order to form a base of control on the reaction.
I'm speaking of coarse about college/airforce life. I've talked with my parents. They are trying to give me the impression that they are OK with me joining the airforce. My mother seemed to be stunned, at first she couldn't believe what she was hearing. Then realizing that she didn't have a choice in the matter. So she made herself believe that it was a good idea. My dad on the other hand, I got a mixed reading.
I'm going Tuesday to the recruiter. My dad is worried that I won't know what to ask. He constantly keeps reminding me to remember what I want to ask. It seems like he is trying to persuade my opinion or something. If my dad puts off going with me again I will just go on my own. I don't give a fk. I haven't told my sisters yet because I will get annoyed with their responses. I will never tell my grandparents. They will only piss me off about it. My family wants me to be a doctor or something. My sister told me once " If you don't be a doctor like you want to be, you will be nothing to me. I want you to remember that" She has also told me " Your far to educated to be a translator. Don't waste your brain on something as trivial as language."
I want to be so many things it is unfair. I don't like the idea of having the same job for many years. The truth is that I will most likely never marry, never settle down, be like 27 when I lose my virginity, and never be content with what I have. I will always look back and say " I should have don't that just a little bit differently." I'm sure in time I will learn to accept this inevitable fate.

Roadside Stranger

Ap Government field trip tomorrow!! yay? I hope the judges don't remember my name. I haven't told my mother that I am going to her work tomorrow. Surprise! I'm ready to eat Ly buffet and listen to the old judges talk about the courthouse. I think they are drug testing at my mom' s work tomorrow so maybe I will see some interesting meth heads. They always seem to stare me down when I go to visit my mom. I've only stopped to say something to them once or twice. " Why are you looking at me?" Madison has said some pretty funny stuff to them before. haha "Why are you looking at me like I'm a fucking crack rock??" FREAKS!

I want to feel sorry for them, but I don't because they put themselves in the situation. I want to believe that they will all complete their 3 years of drugcourt and change. Sadly there has never been a 100% passing rate. Most of them will lie about using all of the time. I have seen it all before. They will straight lie to my mom. "OK then, if your clean then let's prove it with a test." FAIL

Tonight I went to walk the streets of Pascagoula with a friend. Yeah, I'm lame. After we walked for awhile we decide to go to I.G Levy park to walk around the track. We pull into the gate and start going over the first speed bump. These speed bumps are really high. The kind of speed bumps that you will tear your shit up if you don't drive really slow. As we are passing over the speed bump I see a dark figure reaching for the car. I FREAKED OUT and flew across the bump. I was looking at the man with my rear view mirror after he reached for the car. The scary thing was that my windows were down and he was wearing all black. He had a black Pancho looking thing with a knapsack of some kind on his back.

What the fuck was he thinking?? That I was just going to give him a ride? Why does my car scream " I'm giving free rides!!"

I'm officially excited about the Air Force now! I hope you can study abroad when you are enlisted. I haven't talked to a recruiter or anything. I really need to do that sometime. I hope I can go to boot camp or whatever this summer. I want to go out of the country as soon as possible. Africa would be cool. Spain or South America would be freaking sweet!!

Rethinking some friendships. I hate it when you have grown up with someone and you want to throw the friendship away, but you can't because you have invested too much time into it. You know everything about each other and it would be weird if you weren't friends. I can live knowing that someone knows that much about me and my family and we aren't friends. It is strange. Maybe all in need to do is get away for awhile and everything will work itself out.

I have decided that I'm going to get a capabara when I get back from the military. I have wanted one for the longest time and I WILL have one. They are really cool and I would love to have one that acts like a dog. Most of them are really sweet and dog like. :D I want one badLY

English Project.

Sorry if this is choppy. I just don't care right now.
My English project was a fail. Making a book out of sticks and leaves was not the best idea.
Had fun this weekend doing the same old stuff I do every weekend. It's the little things like this that I'm going to miss.
Got pissed off over something stupid.
Finally put my foot down. I hope I crushed his little head.
It took me getting bit by a snake to learn a few life lessons.
I'll just touch on the main ones.
1. If you text your ''best friend'' and this happens, he is not you best friend.
I text him "I just got bit by a snake and i'm going to the E.R." He calls another friend to make plans for the weekend. He didn't know that the other friend was in the E.R. with me. FUCK YOU TOO.
2. I can be too nice. Trying to work on changing my personality. Sometimes I just shouldn't care.


I procrastinated yet again with my Ap Government work. -sigh-
Air force is a go. (booo) I hope I can study abroad.

My parents are slowly getting off my jock. ( Because " I'm condescending towards them" hah true. If you can't beat the retards, make them think they are winning.
Graduation is so close!!! I'm ready. I'm sure I will be sad.
I'm ready for our 20 year anniversary. Looking forward to seeing all the little hellions my class is sure to birth.
I hope I'm married by then, or at least financially stable. haha which ever comes first.

"bit me like a snake"

Long story short. I got bit by a snake. I'm fine. Looking forward to graduation. 19 days left of school. The snake story is too long for my to type. I feel lazy tonight. I might actually go to bed before 12. Going to wear flip flops to school tomorrow!! I want to see if I can get away with it.

Had some really good laughs today because of the snake bite. Maybe that's why I didn't have to urge to kill it after it bit me. I did step on his head after all. I would have done the same thing.

I actually know my sisters boyfriend now. He's cool. seems like an OK kid in my book.

Need to call an airforce recruiter.
Need to pull up my grades.
Need to make join a group on facebook.
Need to make a group.
Need to tell my friends that I am glad I met all of them.

Past life.

Today it was brought to my attention that I remain secretive about my past. ha ha I don't really have and interesting past. lol Just a few good stories here and there. If you want to know just ask. I promise I will try not to beg vague :)
I broke my self goal 4 times today. :( Well 4 and a half. I corrected myself once.
I felt alive outside today. I couldn't resist watching them flip and stuff. haha I haven't played outside like that in a long time.
ps: one day I will be swole.
pss: my cousin is an ASSHOLE!
psss: I couldn't remember what I was going to explain to Khanh. Sorry I really don't remember.
pssss: Khanh CAN dance like a black girl. :) Prom was fun
Psssss: I need another word to describe my personality besides quirky. quirky = gay haha Thanks Paul

Light Pink Corsage

Just got done scrubbing the prom notes off my arm. ha [Thanks Erica]
My favorite prom quote of the day was "Look this rabbit is corsage pink." That really made my day. lol.
Tomorrow is the New Orleans field trip. I'm excited I guess. It has been a long time. My last time there I was in 5th grade. I have full intentions of having a good time. I really don't care much for the history portion. Prom is only a week away and I think I actually feel excited. I don't believe my outside is reflecting my inside though. ha Sorry.
For some strange reason I had an idea to join the military. I have no idea why. I hate everything dealing with the military. well.. I don't hate it. I just don't care for it.
"ok", "sure", and "I guess" have been included in my vocabulary recently. With school ending and everything, it is easier to pretend like I don't care. I don't know why I'm acting the way I am. Maybe I'm becoming my grandpa??? God I hope not.
I'm glad to hear that I wasn't the only one who didn't go to Easter mass. I could really care less about religion at this point in my life. I'm not one of those " I don't believe in what your teaching me" kinda people, but I've just given up on hope. Not in an emo way though. Hope isn't going to get me through my life. I am. Me pretending that my life will unfold the way I want is a fantasy and I'm aware. I feel sorry for the people who can't keep fantasy and reality separate.
I was a major douche to my sister last night and I should probably apologize. One of her friends died and I pretty much told her to get over it. All of you friends are going to die sooner or later, the death chain has to begin somewhere.
I know I've been acting like a douche and I'm sorry.

Pensacola Spring Broke

Let me start off and say Pensacola was a blast! I went to Pensacola on Thursday at 3am. I went with a group of really close friends. HAHA We are LAME. I had a really great time. Who goes to Pensacola? Who goes to Pensacola at 3 am?? We do!! ha. I could probably go into deep detail of our insane adventure and tell stories about the stupid things we did. (and will never do again) But I only wanted to talk about this kid who approached us at the beach. Some how we turned a hour and a half trip into an all day thing. We just arrived at the beach at 2:30 pm. We unloaded all of our supplies and they were looking for a place to change. I pretty much striped in the parking lot before we got there because I don't really care. So they leave to change and I'm keeping watch on our possessions. This kid came up to me and Tyler with a football in his hands asking if we wanted to play. I responded that we had been up for quite some time and I would ask them once they came back. I engaged in conversation with the kid because that's who I am I guess. I'm too tall and old to be raped or anything. So wth. He told me that his name was Jordan and he was from Wisconsin and his family was spending time in Pensacola for spring break. He told me he had family in Pensacola also. He was pretty cool. When they came back they shot his football idea down like a fighter plane. He turned and started walking away. I got his attention and told him that he could chill with us if he wanted. I said ok but left anyway. friend request denied. :( To make a long story short we're crazy and now broke. lol I will remember this spring break for the rest of my life.

My Movie Gallery naughty section virginity lost.

Last Weekend
It's a Friday night, What are we going to do? Let's just ride around till we think of something. Bowling anyone? sure. Bowling was fun. yeah. Anyone hungry? Sonic? sure. Is Movie Gallery open? Not sure. Let's check. "Closed" Dang. Has anyone ever gone in the naughty section? HAHA NO! Me neither. We should.. ha Ok sometime next week though.

Last Night
It's a Friday night, What are we going to do? Let's just ride around till we think of something. Is Movie Gallery open? Not sure. Let's check. What good movies are out? Nothing really. Hey Matt did you and Ryan ever go into the porn section? NO! haha Why not? How about it Ryan? haha I don't care.


So we all pull up... haha 5 people get out of the car and walk into Movie Gallery. Awkwardly walk around for 5 mins debating weather or not to go into the ''naughty section.'' A man leaves the naughty section. We all laugh (LOUD) Poor dude. I look at Ryan he shakes his head up and down smiling. We nonchalantly walk into the back room expecting it to be free of people. WRONG!! haha A big fat man was standing inside. I tried not to laugh, but fail. The room was bigger than I thought it would be. Ryan was trying not to laugh also. I hate that feeling when you see someone laugh and you need too. I cooled down not knowing what to do with that man in the room. When we walked in he made a sad sigh. That was one of the funniest parts. Then 3 mins later Tyler walks in, The man sighs again, and Tyler has no control. Tyler laughed so loud and we ran out of the room in somewhat of a respectful manner. I felt bad for that old man.

Re- Just sand

If you didn't read the Just sand post this might not make any sense.

Robert and I ran again yesterday. We ran to the lake, swam a little, and ran back. It was just as fun as it was every other day. As we were approaching the spot along the trail where we ditched our shoes, I notice a man standing at the end of the trail. Well... he wasn't standing. He was crouching. His red pickup was behind him. Luckily the gate was still locked. He was slowly slithering under the gate. I analyzed the man as best I could in the brief second I allowed him to see me. Camouflage sweet pants, wife beater, and a dog. He looked like a serial killer. I FREAKED OUT!! "Run Robert!!" We took off barefooted across the huge puddles. Running through the briers and into the dump was so scary. [Ha ha but I would do it again] So after we flew across the water and briers we hid under a shredder type machine.[I know- Dumb ass] Who runs under a shredder? Me . Everything was silent, the birds ceased to exist to me. My mind was strictly focused detecting movement and unfamiliar sounds. We moved from our ''bunker" to a lonely grassy hill. It was kinda odd that a grassy hill was in the middle of the dump. We waited-not wanting to stick our heads up just yet. Silence was all around me. I could hear Robert breathing and I could feel my heart pounding. Suddenly a red pickup cuts across the dump. My heart stopped. Do I continue to run? I'm more than willing. I know I could have escaped " Should we run Robert?" "no" The man, climbing out of the pickup waved his finger at us saying what sounded like "come here." I did most of the talking because I have a sliver tongue.. ha ha "You boys know you're on private property right?" " Yeah I saw that" " How did you guys get back here?" " walked" Then I said " we're on the cross country team and we run the trail everyday after school it's cool" The man settled down adjusting the ugly razor[phone] in his hand. Ironic. I could see his dog in the back seat. " You guys can go back through the gate but be careful" "Thanks" I waited till he turned around first. I wasn't going to be shot first. He returned to his truck and pulled away. I talked with Robert about the whole thing. We laughed about his mullet and dog. Ah.. Good times. "So Robert want to run tomorrow?" He looked at me, squinting his eyes and smiling, "Sure, ha ha I love this run"

Just sand

Today I ran after school with Robert. We ran about 6 miles barefooted into the woods on private property to get to a pond. It felt like a light summer. The sun on my back and the dirt on my feet. No obligations, no worries, no time. When I run it's like I control time. Time is my bitch and it waits on me. Yeah, We are crazy for running so far to swim and yeah, I would do it again in a heartbeat. I've done this run before, but never with chilly weather like this. My feet were lightly frozen. As we are running I usually lead the conversation[no duh] and most of the time I'm surprised at how we change subject so quickly. You would be shocked to know how much information a person would share if they were just a little tired.OK, so we ran the first 3 miles till we reached to pond. As usual, we soak our legs in the water for a few mins to soop up our legs. Most of the time we run there, swim, then run back. Today we decided that the wind was blowing entirely too much to swim, but disregarding reason, somehow we ended up in the water anyway. ha When we got out of the water the wind seemed to pick up. We talked about using the warm sand to dry off, arguing the pros and cons. I could deal with being sandy while running back. The trail was always wet anyway so it would only be a matter of time before the sand would be washed away. The pro of warmth dominated the con of being cold. :) We laid on the top of a big sandy hill just talking about random stuff. Robert brought up my dreaded subject, Life after High School. We talked about how most likely we would never remain in contact with our friends. Finding friends would not be a problem for either of us. How hard it is going to be to find new 'Best friends'? We must have talked for a hour and a half on that warm sandy hill. I played with the sand most of the time we were conversing, trying not to imagine the G word. [graduation]. I wanted badly to pretend that I could avoid graduation thoughts.When he brought up college, degrees, and the thought of me doing the same job for the rest of my life, I my brain couldn't take it anymore. I stood up and asked him if he was ready. He failed to notice that I dodged most of his questions. Not because I couldn't answer them, but because I just didn't want to think about it. As we ran back I tired to lighten my mood with banter and bringing up old times when we would all hang out during the summer. Talking about how everyone got on everyone's nerves. When we got back to our cars Robert was complaining about how he didn't want to get sand in his car. I kinda laughed climbing into the 'dollar car', sand was never an issue with me. I said "chill out Robert it's just sand". He laughed, "Yeah, Same time tomorrow?"I responded " Yeah sure". " Later Matt" " Later" After I shut my door the words that came out of my mouth jingled in my head over and over. "Just sand" How is it that ''Just sand" could have such an effect on me? I would look back on this part of my life and think how my memories were shaped by little things such as sand.

My ramble

Money, Money, Money. I've always had a pretty good concept of the value of money. I'm usually a very easy person to please.[haha. I'm easy]. I keep my wants to a low and stay contempt with what I have. In reality, I need a job.
Recently one of my best friends started dating a pretty OK girl.[attitude wise, but that's just me ha] They like to do a lot of stuff together like most couples do. Movies, bowling, etc. I don't know why I feel awkward when I'm hanging out with them. I don't get in the way or anything. I'm not dumb so I know I'm not being a "Cock block". When they start doing their "thing" I just kinda drift away and give them their privacy. I'm not a little kid, I'm not going to pretend that I don't know what's going on. I feel like a third wheel when the 3 of us do anything now.
I'm a person that pickes up on diction, syntax, and body language very well. My brain [to some seems inactive], for a lack of a better word "computes" all of those things. I make a decision based on the best judgement and most beneficial outcome. Even if it is not best for me. My problem is that I can detect "language" ,but my body lags back the response in an uncomfortable situation. I've been training myself to not lag as much. When the teacher asks a question I kinda mumble the answer under my breath. Uncomfortable; to me, is when the room is quiet and I break the silence. Who is listening to me talk? Are they annoyed by my awkward voice? Do they talk about my response like I talk about that dumb bitch's?*CoughalexCough*
A long time ago I thought it was funny and harmless to act dumb. I'm tired of acting dumb and playing the idiot. Outside of school I'm completely different.[if only you knew] I'm a thinker I can't deny it any longer.
In my first block, I want to beat the shit out of this one kid. I'm going to. haha. -Sneak attack- If I ever see him outside of school his ass is grass. He is an idiot and I feel he should be punished. He is rendering my ability to learn. I love my Spanish teacher, but she is too nice to enforce punishment on him. I have no idea why. So.. as !Spanish Club President! I'm going to woop dat ass. :)

Ps: this is a lame video that I recorded last night before we went bowling.
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ASL or Signed English Highlight to read.

/Start.. I just started learning ASL(American Sign Language) again. I was looking for a song to sign. Does anyone have a certain song in mind? I thought about doing "The Traveling song." I want to learn so many things, but it feels like I'm not going to have enough time.
Spanish is my first priority, Then (not in a particular order) Arabic, Chinese, French, German, Vietnamese, and Hebrew. I will most likely never be fluent in more then two of these, but I will try. ..Stop/

Cutting the cake

I had a great day today. My birthday went better then I thought It would. I'm getting tired of my phone going crazy with notifications from facebook. lol To much love!! I had an amazing day at school. The field trip turned out to be great. I kinda' felt like a loser already knowing most of the information the guides were saying. I don't think they got annoyed with me answering most of the questions. I was loving it. :) They kept on telling us that we should volunteer. I was getting stared down big time. ha The guide would ask us a question and I would not hesitate to answer. My teacher was giving me all kinds of looks. To quote her, " Who knew?" It felt really good in a way revisiting my childhood. When we were walking in the woods it was like the guide was my Grandpa. Of coarse I didn't tell him that!
When I got home I was expecting my day to go downhill. I'm not exactly sure why, but it was like I wanted it to go bad. My day was too great and I needed a reality check. Thank God it never came. "I will remember this day for the rest of my life."
My grandparents called me( like they do every year) and did their usual ritual. Sing, Pry into my life, Fail, and give up. I recited the same old story to both sets of grandparents. Jr college for 2 years, Ole Miss for 4. My true intentions however, they will never know.
Tomorrow I'm going to ask Khanh if I can go with them to eat. I don't know why I kinda blew her off today. She was trying to ask me what I was doing this weekend and I completely freaked out for some reason and said camping. We(a group of my friends that I do not hangout with in school) had talked about camping this weekend. None of the plans were final. I guess I responded with ''camping'' because I didn't want to make confusion in my life. It's hard to believe, but I'm extremely anti social outside of school. It's time to get over that.

What's one more year.

Happy Birthday to me. I survived long enough to be lv 18. Today I'm going on a field trip to some reserve in Moss Point. The name of the park is entirely to long and complex. I think they had hopes of the drawing attention to the park. I think it was a fail. Moss point is not exactly famous for it's beauty. I'm going to bring my camcorder to school tomorrow and hopefully record some of my field trip. I'll post it later today.
There is some school game going on in Moss Point as well. I'm not sure what sport. Maybe baseball or softball.
I'm hoping to get enough money from my birthday to purchase a pair of Powerrisers. So I "can run like a raptor down the hallways of the school." ha I want that 9 foot stride and capability of running 25-30 miles per hour. Plus the +7 foot jumping would be awesome. If I get those stilts, I'll faint first, Then the next day I will run to school with them on. :D That would be FUNNY. No telling what I would be called, but I don't really care. Do they have a 9 foot stride? NO. ha Do they get raptor like powers? NO. That would be the best birthday present ever!
I need to make arrangements to take the Ap Bio, English, Environmental, and Spanish exams. I haven't yet filled out the free lunch form. I know that my dad is now unemployed but I don't feel as if our spending has decreased. I really don't want my parents to pay for those exams. :( 70-80 dollars each... yay. Plus my cap and gown. I really need to get on top of things.
I know that today I'm one year older and usually people don't feel like they have aged. I feel older. I look older. Somewhere along the line this year I started growing facial hair. When did this happen? When did I mature enough to be a good friend? To know how to treat people? Or even be a ''good'' student? Where along my short timeline did I become who I am today? I'm sure it happened gradually, but still. I just settled into a close group of friends that I know are friends. If I ever need help, I know that I can depend on them. I would hope they think the same about me. Now that I have ''Friends", we are about to separate in less than 7 weeks. Some of which I will never see again. How many of them will die before our reunion? How many will not even show up? Life is a precious thing and I'm not sure I'm ready to grow up.
I often hear the saying "What's one more year." Well this is my last year of high school. :( I'm one year away from having to work everyday while going to school. I have to be an adult. I'm no Peter pan, but I'm happy where I am in my life now. I survived my evil elementary school teachers, my awkward middle school years, and I'm one more day closer to completing " the best years of my life." College will be fun I guess. I just hope I stay in contact with my friends.
I love you guys
-Thew

Out of no where

I had arranged a tennis game with a friend earlier that day. We usually run after school ,but today was different. He (Robert) decided that we should play tennis instead of running. I agreed, it had been a week or two since our last match. It was 9:45 pm and I was ready to play tennis. I text Robert to check and make sure he is still going to play. He text me back saying that a very interesting movie was on and he would like to finish it. Robert informed me that he would text me when the movie was over. I said sure, no problem. 10:00 rolls around and he text me. I drive to the Junior College to meet him there. I arrive before him. While I was waiting, I observed two other males playing a game between each other. Robert arrives 8 mins later. We spar for a few hours. I hit some of the balls over the fence. Eventually we stopped and I said I would retrieve the balls I hit over the net. Robbert nods and puts his belongings in his car, says goodbye , and pulls away. I walk the outer edge of the courts to locate the balls. I collect the balls as fast as I'm willing to move at the time. I unlock the door to my car, open it, and remembered I needed to turn off the lights to the courts. I leave my door open while I run to hit the switch. Instantly the courts go black. I return to my car and preform my same ritual. I need a soda, but not just any soda. A Barq's Root beer. I drive to the drink machine in front of Hudson's. (because the sodas there are only 40 cents.) I pull up to the machine. The parking lot is completely empty. Leaving my door open, I get out of my car to buy a drink. I've always made it a habit to look around before I leave my car on with my door open. As I get out of my car I look around making sure no one is near. Clear. As I'm buying my soda I hear a man's voice behind me. I'm instantly startled. I replay the sounds of his words in my head to try to compute what I've heard. No luck. I reply,
"Come again?" The man informs me about a trick with the machine. Explaining that if I unplug the machine as it is vending I will receive 2 sodas instead of one. I say, " I guess I'm out of luck. I don't have enough money." I was lieing of course. I always keep change in my car. Hoping that he would take the bait and assume that I had no money. He staggers forward some, as if he was trying to remember my face. I take an awkward step to the side and say goodbye and thanks for the tip. I walk around the back end of my car to avoid his contact. As I'm entering my car, he calls out to me, "I can get'a ride?". I reply, "I'm sorry, My mom will kill me if I'm late home." The look on his face tells me that he has accepted my rejection. He then says, "Margaret wouldn't mind". My heart stops.. How did he know my mom's name? Does he know my name? Does he know where I live? He repeats himself,"I can get a ride?" This time I hear attitude in his voice, or what sounded like assurance. " How about dat ride?" I'm halfway in my car. " I said..No." ''I'm sorry I can't give you a ride." I close and lock my door. He makes his way around the front of my car and stands there. " It's just one ride." he says. Keeping my eyes on the strange man, I put my car in reverse and slowly start to back up. As I'm pulling away he enters the shadows of which he came. I return home and inform my mom of the situation. I give a basic description of the man. She doesn't seem to know him. I sigh and make sure all the doors are locked. I haven't seen him since our last encounter.

New Blogger

Hey, What's up? My name is Matt Chapman and I'm a new blogger. I'm 17, a senior at Gautier High, and Cool. ha I just recently posted a new video on youtube. You can check it out