Sweet Tooth

      "I'm looking down every alley. I'm making those desperate calls."  -Ke$ha

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                  Every now an then I like to believe that 'we' as humans have temporary moments of weakness. These times are often spontaneous, by luck, or dare I say...libido.  

                           When do these moments occur most often? Is it when you pass the vending machine and you think to yourself " I really don't neeeeeddd it, but I want it. I've worked hard lately. I have the money for it. Well, why shouldn't I get it? I deserve to treat myself every now and again!" Before you know it that peanut butter Twix is nestled in your hands and a few minutes later you will completely forget the inner battle you just had with yourself. 

                                     Or... is it when you really want to start that new health trend that you've been trying to pitch to yourself and everyone around you for like the past year. Hopefully talking about change will help you to make that change or encourage you in some way to be that change. 

" Today... I'm going to take a few laps around the walking track." 

        " I'm starting to monitor all of the junk I've been putting in my body! OMG you should totally try it! It's only been a day and I feel soooo much more aware. Lets raise awareness!!"

                                                        Most don't mind admitting to the crippling candy bar or the "Well... I didn't make it to the track today. Things got kinda crazy at work. You understand, right?"

                                                                What about sexual urges? Why the taboo? is that random booty call that you talk to like once every month really any different that that Twix? Maybe it's because that twix doesn't try to pretend that meeting up every once in awhile makes you friends. 

         That reuniting encounter always has that awkward "I feel like we should know more about each other while we're doing this to make us feel better, but we really don't give a fuck... but we should pretend."  Pretending to care about what is going on in each others lives doesn't change that fact that its happening. lol. I'm so amused when girls try to do that.  

         " So.. are you still in the ARMY? How's work treating you?"   

                         "Are you still getting your cosmetology degree? You'll go so far with that..:/ you can work anywhere."   Did i really just fking say that.... this is sad.

                  Bitch please... let's call a spade a spade. We know what this is. 

                                 

                                  With Valentines Day coming up it will be easier to land face first into that Twix or that 'friend'.  And ya know what? I think that is O.K. as long as you're aware that they are 'moments' and when the 'moments' happen just a little to close to one another they form a lifestyle.

                    Just don't be about that life.. lol 

 

                                                 

 

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The Dina Lohan Six Day Arm-N-Hammer Cat Food Binge Diet

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         What will I need?? Well, the beauty behind this breakthrough in the dieting world is the simplicity and availability of all the ingredients. For six days your diet will consist of a fine white Arm-N-Hammer Baking Soda and a smooth rich Fancy Feast. Studies are starting to show that these ingredients alone are scientifically proven to deliver your body the fierce kitty Lohan experience. "Peoplez" magazine recently reported that Paris Hilton (Pear-Bear) started the Dina Lohan experience just last week and the results were jaw dropping.




 After two trips to the E.R. and six staples in her tummy, Pear-Bear is skinner than ever! Thanks to the Dina Lohan Cat Food Binge Diet, no doubt!!

 "OMG!! THIS SHIT IS SO DELISH. Dina was soooo right."

        What if I get thirsty?? Your body can go like 3 days without water or something...Suck it up lard ass it's only 6 days! After you're 3 days in you're halfway there! Yayyyyyyy! All you need to do is sip the liquid off the top of the Fancy Feast can before every one a day portion. if you place your cans outside, hopefully the week you start the diet the forecast called for rain, bitches cuz this is where it gets tricky. If and ONLY IF it rains, can you drink water. May the odds be ever in your favor, Catnip!

"It never rains in my house!"

"What I would do for some fking bread...or what I haven't done":*

Wii- All The Way Home

Recently I went home to visit for the holidays. I got my mom a Wii for her birthday. lolol This could get bad.   

It felt really good to be home. 

I want to be a doctor I think. I've always said nursing ever since i can remember, but I know i can do it and i really want to.


Lately I've been having feelings of confusion like I can't remember why I do anything and why as a society we put so many constraints and rules on everything. Why must their always be a stigma, alternative motive, and personal gain?

o,o  I hate the feeling that being me comes back to bite me in the ass every time.

I was so excited to start school again, but now I'm dreading it and it hasn't even been a full week.

#HOTPROBLEMS


It's only been 2 days into 2013 and I'm fucking way to much. I don't know where this inner trollop-man whore came from, but I can only think of what my parents would say. I'm a male. I'm suppose to be a slut right? At the end of 2012 I started this like strange promiscuous sleeping streak and for some reason I can't stop. I know I want kids, but this new 'hobby' has like totally mind fuck my future for family. It is way too much fun just to smash and leave. Fking military police...Been fking everything. Head is head. :]

 "Hit It And Quit It''   BOiiii


*consequently has resulted with countless nudes on my phone. #NotWhatImAbout 



Lights: Camera: Murder

 Going to be shooting a trailer for a murder mystery soon! It's going to be fucking awesome. Classic public park, dark lighting, and shifty camera angles. I was at work today trying to recruit staff. lol too funny! " Why do i have to be the murderer?" cuz you look pedo IRL lol. 
Think I have most of the staff selected.

My life is a total fking wreck right now, but I can't make myself change. 


Who in the hell am I? What have I become?  

Hell of  a lot different from the Catholic school boy I once was. ha :/

 

How to: Dress like Nicki Minaj.

I was in Wal-Mart a few days ago looking for some cupcakes for a co-worker's birthday and out of the corner of my eye I spotted some newly displayed Halloween get-ups! Thanksgiving hasn't arrived yet, but I'm already excited for Halloween! While scanning the isles, Cesar ( A friend I work with) picked up a black wig with pink highlights and I began to laugh hysterically. I kind of reminded me of a really shitty game called " Lollipop Chainsaw", but mostly Katy Perry.  At that moment we knew he had to get it. 

The car ride home would now be filled with epicnessnessneess!! lol many of the epics. Of course I had to get one as well ha so I grabbed one called Berry n' Cream. It had a black female wearing half and half blonde and pink hair. I'm guessing it was suppose to be like Nicki Minaj. 

We finally checkout after waiting in what seemed like the most hectic  5 o'clock traffic in Wally-World evva. I swear there had to be at least 4 fender benders and 3 Hoveround  pileups. 

The cashier is smiling b/c it's always funny when you see guys buying wigs and cupcakes. (or jumbo braid from da Dolla Sto') lol that's another story entirely. 

" OMG ARE YOU GOING TO BE NICKI!!??" "AND KATY??" LOLOL THAT'S FUNNY!!"

    She kept on calling me Nicki and calling Cesar,  Katy Perry. It was great lolol

 On the way back home we sang "Call me Maybe" with another car next to us. Looking phresh to death with our new hair of course :)

I think I made out pretty well.. Twins you would say?  Needless to say we signed many autographs XD

Maybe I should go as Simba instead?









Let's not even mention Christmas. haha I stay on that shit all year, but seriously.. "Last Christmas" is a everyday song like. ''Humps" by the Black Eyed Peas or ummm ooo "Hollaback Girl" by Gwen Stefani! I'll argue that till I die! ha

We've already given it gender, but I refuse to believe that music can have seasons! Do you ever notice that around Autumn songs like "Lips of an Angel" and "Photograph'' play like 10,000 times along with a shit ton of Daughtry  Why!!? :'((

Mourning PT:By Matt Chapman

**This was about a run we did a few days ago. . Been one of those days. :P SN- sorry my punctuation is sloppy.**

Cold air in my face, shoes barely laced; today is today

Wandering mind out the door PT belt deluxe

Natures cruel embrace, hurrying; make haste

Alone in the pack but cool in the chase ready to go forth shining

Groups emerge and faces exchange- Orion has never felt so close

The moon says "~push~"

My body continues to pull

Finally! together as one

Entering transport- -Flash* I'm back?

Back to forever, beyond forever. Forever ago

Kids in cars and cars with kids without cares

Illusions play; as they must, they need to feel remembered

Everything needs remembering

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Destination unsought, lights ablaze; illuminated concrete jungle maze

Darker now.. silent night, mountain's toes exposed

A once familiar place, Sergeant commands the pace

Winding and climbing, sailing and flowing- Teens quest for greatness

Bends and passes nurture the path as fine mothers do

Demanding respect, the mountain inclines; Orion smiles

Celestial bow wielded proud, arrow tips lie not far

Erosion tell the tales of forgotten time, furrows expose the mountain's relentless side

The moon speaks "~push~"

Embers burn down and deep fibers of harp like muscle untouched by man begin to play

Enchanted by song, they pull-The mountain grumbles, inclining to protect its face

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Over the rail the city rest, even owls dare not wake

Fearless teens continue to take flight towards the mountain

Orion whispers with kindness " %#*^%$#"

A long ago cosmic language that only stars gossip

Praising, granting approval to the knightly youth

The harp begins to fade; Thin icy winds fill the teens

Breathe becoming a chore.

Now and only now does the mountain smirk

With torn sails the teens continue to quest

Sergeant calls " We've tried our best."

With coughs and hacks the once fearless teens truck back

Entering transport- - Flash* I'm back!

Hangul-ing it up.

So.. Korean is my new buzzzzz right now. :) I've been watching a Korean show called F(x) Koala and I'm in love with the language. lol. Only me, I guess. :/

Confession time. ;O 3 years ago when I started learning Spanish, I only started because I was inspired by a music video that I saw. So... I don't think it is foolish for me to want to learn Korean based off of that same motivation. :) (My ignorant reasoning) I don't want to mention the artist of the video or the song. XD

I think it would be one of the easier eastern languages to learn. Only because the alphabet is only like 31 or 34 letters or something and Hangul is really easy to read.(SO FAR) Plus+++ It's not as tonal as some of the other languages. Really looking forward to this in the near future.


I leave for basic in ~28 days :O Holy fuck...... I'm excited!! But I would be even more excited if I were in Spain (or a newly loved, Korea) for school already. :( I'm sure I will be fine. :) Matt Chapman 'fiiiiting'!!!! XD too early? lol

Trying to decide what is going to be harder. lol 9 weeks of bootcamp or 9 weeks without Internet :O Ayyyyy ahhhhhhh!!!


Didn't really need the video, the audio is more than satisfactory. :) enjoy ------->

K-pop

So I was on YouTube today(shocker) and I noticed something about one of the top 10 videos. Number 8 was a K-pop(Korean pop) video. :O

Out of extreme curiosity I HAD to watch it!!

It wasn't that bad actually. lol It's on my phone now anyway. :P

I don't have a creepy anime Asian girl fetish or anything but there is something hypnotic about group dancing! Since most K-pop is like that they're all entertaining to watch. But anyway "2NE1" is the group that made it on the top 10. So....CONGRATS!! :3 <- anime smile that I thought was appropriate.

They don't have shit on my F(x) girls though. :)

I felt like I had to make a GIF for them. <3

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Post Apocalyptic Clothing

There is something about post apocalyptic clothing that is so hot and cool looking. Lol Why does it take a disaster for people to design bad ass looking clothes?

I love the whole underground scene thing. Not really sure why. Maybe it's the idea that resources are limited and Darwinism would be more prevalent. The older method of trade would surely come back and you can bet your buttons that if Britney Spears and I had to fight over a ham sandwich, I would kick that bitch's ass. :P JS Sorry Britney <3 (Maybe I would share it) BUT ONLY THE CRUST!!! MUAHAHA >:) I do like " Till The World Ends" though :)

Honestly, you need to be ready for both types of apocalypses. In the movies The Book of Eli, The Road, I am Legend, Legion, Daybreakers, The Crazies.. ect; Those movies were all dry apocalypses. ( I made up the term dry apocalypse)

Then there are movies like 2012, The Day After Tomorrow, Waterworld,..ect. Those would be the wet apocalypse types where land would be an issue and survival (in my opinion) would be harder.

Maddy's little quick questions.

SO... .. lol not exactly sure how to start this blog off. Here it goes. So.. haha I'm trying not to laugh while typing this but it was so funny I can't stop.

I was standing in the kitchen eating a pickle and I hear Maddy call for me from her room. Knowing she will not understand anything I yell back, because of the distance I mumble something like " Ok, I'm on my way." Walking to her room, I kind of drag my feet as I walk through the hallway to give her warning that I'm approaching. I didn't want this to be another 'String' incident so I ask " What do you want turd?"

She says " I wanted to tell you that (cuts off mid sentence) Is that a pickle?"

blah blah blah... "Are there anymore left?" yah

/we walk to kitchen

lmao as she is waving her pickle at me she says " SO.. Yeah.. Um.. Don't think I'm weird but I have a question for ya XD"

I'm thinking, OH shit.. .what is it?

Maddy: If you had and vagina for one day what would you do with it?

Me: Um....piss?

Maddy: BORING!!!! LMAO IF I HAD A PENIS I WOULD GO CRAZY WITH THAT THING!!!

Me: WHAT?? XD HOW??

Maddy: First I would teabag you!! lol a lot!! Then I would piss all over you while chasing you down!! lol Because I would be able to pee and run at the same time. ( Mumbles to herself.. "How efficient!") :)

Maddy: I'm going to ask Mom what she would do!! HAAHHA

Me: OH gawd..

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Maddy: Mom?

Mom: yeah honey?

Maddy: If you had a penis for a day what would you do with it? :)

Mom: Probably scratch it!! XD

GROSSS!!!!!!!!!! xD

~*Mayan Madness*~

While studying up on the Mayans for my Spanish culture project, (that is due today) I learned that Mayans are one of the few civilizations that worshiped time. I don't know why I was awestruck by that...or for that matter why I'm even on my blog. :/ For my project I was going to entertain my class with their Mayan horoscopes, but I've decided that I couldn't find a reliable source. good excuse right? nahh? well maybe I will just wing it. (Ca'CAHH!! mutha fker) Instead I've chosen to study the culture and give a speech pertaining to the calender and explaining it. Hopefully that goes well. :) Because everyone knows my speeches are da bomb. *tick, tick, boom* Speaking of time. :D I have a watch now! (kinda) Well.. It was given to me. Right before my unclce -moved out- (I used this term lightly) he was going through all of his personals that he was going to bring with him and he came across the watch. Uncle: Wanawach ( Translation)= would you like a watch? Me: Um.. sure. Uncle:Iwasgonagiv't tadany butheleff (Translation) = I was going to give it to my son be he is a fuck up and I already have one so you may have it if you wish. Me: thanks ;D I have no use for it and it will more than likely never be worn by me. well.. that's not entierly true. I wore it a few nights ago and it felt weird .. like I had a dead famiy member and the only thing I have left was his watch. ummm no thanks. Now I have a comeback to that lame ass " What time is it? Time for you to get a watch! bahah" BITCH I GOT ONE!! >:) But... I don't wear it. :P so seriously.. what time is it? OH!!! Wait... I have a phone. nvm. Maybe I'll see you again blog sometime in the near future. I've missed you. Plus!! I was reading some of my old post! BAHHAHAhAh lmao I was one fucked up kid. :P

Wazzz uppp blog..

Oh blog...our relationship hasn't been so good. but anyway. .
{CAUTION IF YOU ARE IN A GOOD MOOD DON'T READ THIS THIS MAY E/A FFECT IT}

Side note ( I might find a girlfriend. It seems like everyone is getting one now. Like pets :D )
There is this fine ass chick in my Spanish 3 class but her teeth are kinda fucked up.. so....yeah..maybe not. I disregard all of my morals and be a man. Maybe be a heart breaker

OHHH yeahhh I noticed that I don't have a best friend.. (This really made me sad)...You know, that childhood friend that everyone has...I don't have one.

My life really fucking sucks right now.. the job that I was guaranteed to receive fell apart.
I don't know if I was more pissed or upset. She said that in a few months the job would be mine.
This woman is a family friend and reasonably trustworthy. She isn't lieing. Trust me

In the mean time....... I am back at Wendy's...fuck my life.. it is so boring there. I only went back because I need to come up with 381 dollars by October for student fees.


While commenting on Brenden's status on facebook today, I noticed that I have never loved anything in my entire life. I've liked many things and I would be sad without certain things...but I've never felt the need to love anything or anyone.
Has Hollywood blinded me ??? Am I expecting love to just appear? Maybe I've experienced love before ,but It just wasn't up to par on what I expect it it be?

"Statistically"( I use this term lightly) we are all approaching the age that most of us will die in crazy accidents. This sucks. Everyone be careful . Seriously.


*I kinda miss everyone but I really can't complain because if everyone was back we wouldn't have time to see each other anyway. * I've excepted this already.

"Slap a saddle on that horse fly"

Had fun this weekend with Maddy.

http://www.youtube.com/user/amttchapman#p/a/u/1/ukJW6aaq-wc



This is what we do most of the time. Just a look at the "real" us.
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'Round The World

So I played a joke on my mom. AHHAHA very funny!! I found a picture on the Internet of some people dancing or something and I super imposed myself into the picture. They are like in China or somewhere. My mom saw the picture and freaked out!!. It is on my facebook under "Hanging out" if you want to get a better look at it.
"Where were you?!?! New Orleans?" hahahhaah

Mom thought she saw Khanh on the left (Yellow shirt) and Sandra somewhere. I had her going for minutes. I finally told her that I didn't go anywhere and she DIDN"T believe me!! HAHAHAH

I love mi Mum

Signing A New Tune

Head Hunt
Kristin's party was really fun. (Nothing ironic intended with the following paragraph)
I'm a beast at volley ball and "I can get low at limbo and I can jump like a frog"
I scared Kelcey when she was on the playground and she later decided to smear an orange on my face when I wasn't paying attention. I retaliated with the 10x(times) harder rule. I smothered a Sloppy Joe all across her face! Muhahahhahha Bitch get some. lol Torrean helped me hold her against the wall. It felt like a very strange rape team. lol She over reacted and took her shirt off. :/ She was wearing a bathing suit underneath. She said I got some Sloppy Joe in her hair and her shirt. I will admit to the hair, but I didn't even come close to the shirt. I later made a reference to Kiki about the situation after Courtney spilled some water on her.
" You going to take your shirt off too?"
" Um... No. hahaha. Your bad."

Music hunt
I've been trying to put together an amazing playlist recently. While on my hunt I decided to sign a song that I found. It is kinda fast and I am asking an sign language youtuber to take a look at the lyrics that I planned out to see if they are in the correct word order. I have a fear of being insulted by the def and ASL community.

College hunt
I took care of some much dreaded business today at the Jackson County Campus.
At lunch with my mom today. I met her at her office. Ly Buffet.
I was telling her that the last time I was there I ate with at thief. We talked about my dad some. When we were done eating I asked her if she wanted to go with me to the ATC. She agreed.
Turns out I have to contact my Electronics teacher....that bastard..
He needs to write me a letter of recommendation.
I called Gautier High today to get my transcripts delivered. Mrs. Shook answered and transfered me to Mr. Woodward. I waited on the phone for 10 mins.... no one picked up the phone..... Still need to do some things.


Crap I just remembered... I was suppose to run with Robert tonight.....DAMN!!!!!

Bye need to do that. I'm not a liar...

Playing catch up

Ok...I wanted to give the run down because it feels like I've been gone for 3 weeks.

Gone for 3 days.
swimming....rain...fishing...not sleeping....getting pissed..laughing.. long walks in the dark...telling stories..trying to sneak into a hidden bunker in some stranger's yard...F-N crazy

Killed windows OS completely and give birth to Ubuntu. LOVE IT!!

No phone.. no facebook...no connection to people I love to hang out with.
The phone and facebook wasn't a big deal.
I felt like I was being spammed when I got reception..

I ate Church's chicken for the 2nd time in my life.


(the crew) Vs (other group of friends I always hung out with)


I love the crew. Just saying.., but I miss the other group.

I feel like I'm falling behind with some of the other group.

_Crew_ _Other Group_
Khanh Ryan
Paul Stephen
Erica Robert
Torrean Tyler -
etc everyone else I like. (Long list) RJ...Billy....Spicers (plural)

I want to be close to both groups.. I feel closer to the crew though. The conversations are always so much better.

rule of life. Put yourself in an atmosphere that you feel most comfortable.

Hung out with some of the best hommies I have ever met. let's just say...It was something like this.. haha ☻☻☻☺☻☻☻ Guess which one was me. ha

Me:"Mom, do you care if I go bowling?"
Dad: with who?
Me: Torrean and Julianis
Dad: who???
Me: some black friends
Mom: Have fun honey

My dad just walked in and I have to go.. bye later

Parties and Porno

Torrean has a blog now.. Now i have to watch what I say lol Just kidding.



So I've been kinda lacking on my blog biz-naz. My life is kinda at a standstill, trying to build the courage to tell my parents what I want to do with my life is harder than I thought. My grandparents are down from Maine for graduation. I was told that my Grampy was dancing on the stage at the shed with his whiskey hidden inside his beer can. -sigh- ...sorry.



I didn't realize how dumb my dad was till I heard him talk. I don't know why I said that. He has been on my nerves on and off.



My sister(Mellissa) just broke up with her boyfriend last night. They dated for 2 years.. I hated him. He was cool though. He doesn't know how to do his own laundry or anything and they were going to move in together and go to college. Thank god or someone that she realized that she would be doing it. She told him she wasn't going to be his maid and she ended it.

He will most likely come back around. They have gone on so many trips together. Kayaking trips, Hiking trips, Grand canyon trips, .. etc MILLIONS!!



My grandparents are meeting Maddy's boyfriend tonight. They have been dating for 3 months. He's cool. I haven't really held a conversation long enough to determine if he is uneducated yet. I have heard him talk before and he sounds dumb.



Speaking of dumb. ...let's just say that when I was in the office today they wanted me to pay $234 for my AP test... FUCK THAT!! I told them I was on free lunch. I have to write a letter saying that I can't pay it. Erizzel should do the same thing.

Graduation is tomorrow and so is Erizzel's party. I'm excited. Erizzel's party first, then graduation, then Ali's.
I feel like a party whore. haha

Today my grandparents asked me what I wanted to do with my life.. I said die young. lol That should throw them off. They only know me based off of pictures and what my parents say. Both don't know squat about me. My grandpa thinks I'm dumb.. so I'll let him think what he wants.

My other set of grandparents are trying to force money down my mouth every chance they get. " we will pay for your school." blah blah blah.....

I will NEVER take the money. I don't want them holding that above my head.

Well I'm done. I know this isn't a very good blog. I guess I've gotten rusty. haha I'm uploading a porno video that we shot today onto youtube. I wonder how long it will take before it gets ban.

Climbing the tower

First let me start off by saying that Karma is a bitch and I'm being punished.If I have a strange walk tomorrow, you know why.

K-dog: So did you get bit by another snake yet?
Me: haha.. No. I guess y'all haven't been mean enough lately

1 day later...I broke my toe playing football. Saturday night

Carpe diem has really been on my mind lately. Ever since I climbed on top of Mrs. Blackwell's desk I have had the urge to have that feeling again. Friday night .. well.. Saturday morning.
3 AMsh. I climbed the water tower across the street from my house.. The view was amazing. I felt like I was seeing around my house for the first time. I don't think I will tell Mrs. Blackwell about that. haha


I was really sad Saturday night. I haven't teared up in a very long time and I never cry.. ever.
I have been talking to my sister(Mellissa) more than I have ever talked to her before. We hung out Saturday and Mothers Day. We are in the same situation friend wise. We both 'had' one friend that was always a moocher and was never a true friend. We didn't know why we would always hang out with them. They were nothing like us.
Strangely enough, We both( Mellissa and I) ended our friendships with our best friends this weekend.
Tyler has been my best friend since 5th grade. We hang out all the time and eat breakfast together, but I knew he was a bad friend. My parents have always told me that he was bad and I shouldn't associate myself with him. I didn't listen. So many years of questionable friendship.. Yet we always hung out.

I have told myself before that I should not be friends with him. But sometimes he is cool and fun to hang out with.

I pretty much had it when we all met up at someones house to play football at the soccer complex. I always drive to the complex and someone always drives too. Usually alternating between Robert and Stephen. We always have 2 car loads of people. Well.. this time I said I wasn't going to drive. Everyone was cool with it because they know I drive every where. No one wanted to volunteer to drive.. we sat there for a good 10 mins.. then Robert and Stephen said they would drive. Tyler said he wasn't going to. I got so fucking mad. Tyler NEVER drives. NEVER... His reasoning was SHIT. A first grader could have came up with a better excuse.
He tried to turn 2 other friends against me... just like him.. but I got to them first and told them the whole situation. He was poising their minds with lies. SO FUCKING LIKE HIM..
I made amens with the 2 other friends. Explaining that it was wrong of me to try to make them pick sides knowing they like both of us. I told Tyler that I can not be his friend. That we were both thinking it so we mine as well say it. I'm going to make plans to eat breakfast with Ali or somebody. She used to eat with us sometimes.

I don't have 1st block anymore so I don't have to sit by him. I'm trying to be as mature as I can about this but I know he is going to make it difficult. I don't care if he talks shit about me. I'm not going to retaliate. I am and I will always be the bigger and better person. I don't think of myself of having questionable morals. I hope people know that when I say "I'm your friend" you get the whole friendship package. Secrets are kept, your name defended, and my 100% support.
The only thing that has kept me going is the reasoning I have made myself believe.
He is the one that lost a good friend, I'm just that fool that had his company.

[Friendship terminated]
I will still hang out with our mutual friends, They have already asked me that. I laughed and said why would he have ownership of your guys? It's not a custody battle. haha

List

1. Space
2. On top of a moving bus
3. In the manatee or polar bear exhibit.. don't ask..
4. The rain forest
5. In a dark alley. Just so I can say that I did.
6.On an escalator in a large mall.. Try to finish before we get to the top. Might be hard.
7. A McDonald's bathroom
8. Hudson's changing room.
9. In a hotel bathroom shower. A nice one. While being broadcasted on the Internet.
10. Mushroom kingdom.....Peaches castle..
11. In a raptors nest
12. The cabin of a pirate ship
13. A cave where blood diamonds are. Africa
14. In the cargo storage area on a titanic replica. Car. I've always wanted to steam windows.
15. The alter of a church
16.Storage closet
17. Behind some bushes in the Grand Canyon
19. Falling out of a plane
20.In a twinkie factory.

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Ap english exam/pmsing/guilt

I've been in a sad mood towards the end of the day recently.

In other news I think my female house mates are pmsing. They had a big verbal dispute over a shirt.. again.. This one lasted for quite some time. Minutes later.... Mellissa called Madison outside to talk. They were making up. My dad asked me why she called Madison over. I didn't feel like having to explain the situation to him so I did what I do best, played dumb. He bought it.. of course Within this making up ritual they decide to go get snow cones without me. :( The argument was, I was trying to fall asleep on the couch. I laughed.. yeah. Mellissa gave me the rest of hers when they got back. Of coarse Madison's fat ass ate hers before they got back. haha (She hid at least 30 pizza rolls from me the day before. She lied to me and told me they were all gone. I would have believed her too if i wouldn't have found the plate left on the table.)

Had the English test today...blah..blah.. but that is not what I wanted to blog about.

During the break between the multiple choice and the essays, I was talking with a student about a selection on the test, The Race. It was about a woman running through an airport trying to board a plane and see her loved one that was in a hospital. The doctor told her she wouldn't be able to reach him in time. Short story even shorter, She made it.

The conversation with this student went like this: Red:Student Blue: Me haha

That section about the race kinda made me tear up a bit

Why? The story wasn't even that good.

Well.. My dad died . .and. .yeah.

Oh,(long ass douchbagish never ending pause) sorry.

End conversation: subject dropped. Sad story avoided.

I was thinking about that for most of the day today. Why did I pause? Why did I over analyze the situation and send a message to the person explaining that I was sorry for pausing?

Message:

Do you remember today when you were telling me about the passage on the test that kinda hit close to home for you? I'm sorry for only saying

"Oh,(long douchebag pause) sorry" I was thinking about that all day today and felt bad afterwards. I guess the human nature in me wanted me to pry and know the whole story, but my better judgement made me freak out and avoid the subject completely. I know you probably didn't interpret the situation like I did, but I still feel like I should apologize. Sorry.

I need to print out a calender to keep up with all the graduation party days. My sisters graduation party was a surprise. I hope they don't spring one on me. I really need the calender so I can put it on the fridge so my parents can plan around the days.

This is the third time I've written this blog.. My computer has been infected by some kind of virus so I'm on my mom's. Don't let your siblings download music...

Select one of the following.. guess which one she would pick

1. Hey soul sister-Train

2. HEY SOUL SISTER OFFICIAL-TRAIN

3.Hey soul sister-Train

I enjoyed the blogs. Sorry mines is so late. I don't think anyone will read this before we go to school.