Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Parties and Porno

Torrean has a blog now.. Now i have to watch what I say lol Just kidding.



So I've been kinda lacking on my blog biz-naz. My life is kinda at a standstill, trying to build the courage to tell my parents what I want to do with my life is harder than I thought. My grandparents are down from Maine for graduation. I was told that my Grampy was dancing on the stage at the shed with his whiskey hidden inside his beer can. -sigh- ...sorry.



I didn't realize how dumb my dad was till I heard him talk. I don't know why I said that. He has been on my nerves on and off.



My sister(Mellissa) just broke up with her boyfriend last night. They dated for 2 years.. I hated him. He was cool though. He doesn't know how to do his own laundry or anything and they were going to move in together and go to college. Thank god or someone that she realized that she would be doing it. She told him she wasn't going to be his maid and she ended it.

He will most likely come back around. They have gone on so many trips together. Kayaking trips, Hiking trips, Grand canyon trips, .. etc MILLIONS!!



My grandparents are meeting Maddy's boyfriend tonight. They have been dating for 3 months. He's cool. I haven't really held a conversation long enough to determine if he is uneducated yet. I have heard him talk before and he sounds dumb.



Speaking of dumb. ...let's just say that when I was in the office today they wanted me to pay $234 for my AP test... FUCK THAT!! I told them I was on free lunch. I have to write a letter saying that I can't pay it. Erizzel should do the same thing.

Graduation is tomorrow and so is Erizzel's party. I'm excited. Erizzel's party first, then graduation, then Ali's.
I feel like a party whore. haha

Today my grandparents asked me what I wanted to do with my life.. I said die young. lol That should throw them off. They only know me based off of pictures and what my parents say. Both don't know squat about me. My grandpa thinks I'm dumb.. so I'll let him think what he wants.

My other set of grandparents are trying to force money down my mouth every chance they get. " we will pay for your school." blah blah blah.....

I will NEVER take the money. I don't want them holding that above my head.

Well I'm done. I know this isn't a very good blog. I guess I've gotten rusty. haha I'm uploading a porno video that we shot today onto youtube. I wonder how long it will take before it gets ban.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Climbing the tower

First let me start off by saying that Karma is a bitch and I'm being punished.If I have a strange walk tomorrow, you know why.

K-dog: So did you get bit by another snake yet?
Me: haha.. No. I guess y'all haven't been mean enough lately

1 day later...I broke my toe playing football. Saturday night

Carpe diem has really been on my mind lately. Ever since I climbed on top of Mrs. Blackwell's desk I have had the urge to have that feeling again. Friday night .. well.. Saturday morning.
3 AMsh. I climbed the water tower across the street from my house.. The view was amazing. I felt like I was seeing around my house for the first time. I don't think I will tell Mrs. Blackwell about that. haha


I was really sad Saturday night. I haven't teared up in a very long time and I never cry.. ever.
I have been talking to my sister(Mellissa) more than I have ever talked to her before. We hung out Saturday and Mothers Day. We are in the same situation friend wise. We both 'had' one friend that was always a moocher and was never a true friend. We didn't know why we would always hang out with them. They were nothing like us.
Strangely enough, We both( Mellissa and I) ended our friendships with our best friends this weekend.
Tyler has been my best friend since 5th grade. We hang out all the time and eat breakfast together, but I knew he was a bad friend. My parents have always told me that he was bad and I shouldn't associate myself with him. I didn't listen. So many years of questionable friendship.. Yet we always hung out.

I have told myself before that I should not be friends with him. But sometimes he is cool and fun to hang out with.

I pretty much had it when we all met up at someones house to play football at the soccer complex. I always drive to the complex and someone always drives too. Usually alternating between Robert and Stephen. We always have 2 car loads of people. Well.. this time I said I wasn't going to drive. Everyone was cool with it because they know I drive every where. No one wanted to volunteer to drive.. we sat there for a good 10 mins.. then Robert and Stephen said they would drive. Tyler said he wasn't going to. I got so fucking mad. Tyler NEVER drives. NEVER... His reasoning was SHIT. A first grader could have came up with a better excuse.
He tried to turn 2 other friends against me... just like him.. but I got to them first and told them the whole situation. He was poising their minds with lies. SO FUCKING LIKE HIM..
I made amens with the 2 other friends. Explaining that it was wrong of me to try to make them pick sides knowing they like both of us. I told Tyler that I can not be his friend. That we were both thinking it so we mine as well say it. I'm going to make plans to eat breakfast with Ali or somebody. She used to eat with us sometimes.

I don't have 1st block anymore so I don't have to sit by him. I'm trying to be as mature as I can about this but I know he is going to make it difficult. I don't care if he talks shit about me. I'm not going to retaliate. I am and I will always be the bigger and better person. I don't think of myself of having questionable morals. I hope people know that when I say "I'm your friend" you get the whole friendship package. Secrets are kept, your name defended, and my 100% support.
The only thing that has kept me going is the reasoning I have made myself believe.
He is the one that lost a good friend, I'm just that fool that had his company.

[Friendship terminated]
I will still hang out with our mutual friends, They have already asked me that. I laughed and said why would he have ownership of your guys? It's not a custody battle. haha

Friday, May 7, 2010

List

1. Space
2. On top of a moving bus
3. In the manatee or polar bear exhibit.. don't ask..
4. The rain forest
5. In a dark alley. Just so I can say that I did.
6.On an escalator in a large mall.. Try to finish before we get to the top. Might be hard.
7. A McDonald's bathroom
8. Hudson's changing room.
9. In a hotel bathroom shower. A nice one. While being broadcasted on the Internet.
10. Mushroom kingdom.....Peaches castle..
11. In a raptors nest
12. The cabin of a pirate ship
13. A cave where blood diamonds are. Africa
14. In the cargo storage area on a titanic replica. Car. I've always wanted to steam windows.
15. The alter of a church
16.Storage closet
17. Behind some bushes in the Grand Canyon
19. Falling out of a plane
20.In a twinkie factory.

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Thursday, May 6, 2010

Ap english exam/pmsing/guilt

I've been in a sad mood towards the end of the day recently.
In other news I think my female house mates are pmsing. They had a big verbal dispute over a shirt.. again.. This one lasted for quite some time. Minutes later.... Mellissa called Madison outside to talk. They were making up. My dad asked me why she called Madison over. I didn't feel like having to explain the situation to him so I did what I do best, played dumb. He bought it.. of course Within this making up ritual they decide to go get snow cones without me. :( The argument was, I was trying to fall asleep on the couch. I laughed.. yeah. Mellissa gave me the rest of hers when they got back. Of coarse Madison's fat ass ate hers before they got back. haha (She hid at least 30 pizza rolls from me the day before. She lied to me and told me they were all gone. I would have believed her too if i wouldn't have found the plate left on the table.)
Had the English test today...blah..blah.. but that is not what I wanted to blog about.
During the break between the multiple choice and the essays, I was talking with a student about a selection on the test, The Race. It was about a woman running through an airport trying to board a plane and see her loved one that was in a hospital. The doctor told her she wouldn't be able to reach him in time. Short story even shorter, She made it.
The conversation with this student went like this: Red:Student Blue: Me haha
That section about the race kinda made me tear up a bit
Why? The story wasn't even that good.
Well.. My dad died . .and. .yeah.
Oh,(long ass douchbagish never ending pause) sorry.
End conversation: subject dropped. Sad story avoided.
I was thinking about that for most of the day today. Why did I pause? Why did I over analyze the situation and send a message to the person explaining that I was sorry for pausing?
Message:
Do you remember today when you were telling me about the passage on the test that kinda hit close to home for you? I'm sorry for only saying
"Oh,(long douchebag pause) sorry" I was thinking about that all day today and felt bad afterwards. I guess the human nature in me wanted me to pry and know the whole story, but my better judgement made me freak out and avoid the subject completely. I know you probably didn't interpret the situation like I did, but I still feel like I should apologize. Sorry.
I need to print out a calender to keep up with all the graduation party days. My sisters graduation party was a surprise. I hope they don't spring one on me. I really need the calender so I can put it on the fridge so my parents can plan around the days.
This is the third time I've written this blog.. My computer has been infected by some kind of virus so I'm on my mom's. Don't let your siblings download music...
Select one of the following.. guess which one she would pick
1. Hey soul sister-Train
2. HEY SOUL SISTER OFFICIAL-TRAIN
3.Hey soul sister-Train
I enjoyed the blogs. Sorry mines is so late. I don't think anyone will read this before we go to school.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

AP Spanish Exam/ Cloud9

I took the AP Spanish Exam today and I think I did really well. I kinda stumbled on the audio portion a little bit, but that was only 20 percent of the grade. :( I'm sure I got at least some credit on that one anyway. There were tons of reading passages, essays, DBQs, and free response (literally, talk in the microphone type stuff) I had a good time taking the test. I know that sounds weird, but the testing environment was really great. I knew the other two people in there. ha I want to tell you about one of the audio questions that I almost made me start laughing.
Keep in mind that this is all in Spanish. lol I was completely thrown off by the old woman talking. I was expecting a middle aged male. haha It felt like I was talking with an old Spanish maid.
Directions: respond to the dialog and hold a conversation
Old woman: I think we should have a language day. What languages should we celebrate?
Me: I think we should celebrate French, Italian, and German they are very interesting.
Old woman: That's great. How should we decorate the halls?
Me: WTF??
Old woman: What type of crafts should we make?
Me: umm.....
Old woman: Sounds fun. Goodbye. Thanks for talking. See you soon
End recording
Me:Wtf??

I was really proud of myself for writing 2 pages on why music has an important impact on the lives of the young. I was straight beast. It was like something inside me just turned on and it was survive or be eaten alive by self remorse. I don't know where I found the words, but I was (I'm just going to say it) FUCKING BEAST!!!
I saw another girl taking the test and she had her head down waiting for it to end. haha

I can't remember most of the exam because I couldn't see a lot of it. Most of the test was read aloud by a CD player
I also had to write a e-mail to my friend who invited me to go on vacation with them. I wrote about how I was excited about going and that I've been to that beach before and how the staff was so nice. Then I talked about how I couldn't go because my grandma was very sick and I needed to be with her.
I had to compare the lives of 2 people. I had a physical copy of one section that described one person then I had to listen to the other source. Then I had 2 minutes to think then 2 minutes to talk about them. Haha I said more than anyone else. :) confidence.

One of the counselors told me that she was proud of me. I was on cloud 9 today.
My Spanish teacher found me in the hallway and asked me about the exam. She is so nice. I love her. She wished me luck the day before and told me that morning also.
I told her that I couldn't schedule to be in her class till next Wednesday haha. She looked at me like I was on crack. She said " what?"
Then I explained.
Thursday- AP English
Friday- Senior Field day (It better be)
Monday- AP Bio
Tuesday-Ap Environmental (I'm not going to pay the money. hahaha)
Wednesday- Spanish teacher make up test. last day of school :)